There's nothing wrong in being fake. You'll be happy with it.

It has been a while since I've written over here! But there's a lot of thoughts to write about, lots of opinions and bubbles of ideas in my head to be told. So here I am :) 

Hope this is gonna be a gentle come back though I don't have that many or any followers, but not a wee bit caring at all. I just want to spill my beans on this site. So my first entry would be about my dilemma right now! 

WHY IS IT HARD FOR OTHER IN MALAYSIA TO ACCEPT OTHER'S CHANGES OR NEW LOOKS? 

It's actually not a problem to me. I don't really care if your look or attitude or personality is out of the country BUT I can't go against my Malay genes to be ''dengki'' of others. It's just how I was born to be. But with the help of the telly, I've managed to overcome it. But now I feel the harshness when other's judge me cause all I do is unorthodox. 

In 2010, I ran into a girl on the internet, we didn't talk but i knew her as a fan. She had tons of us. Why? Because she didn't care about that others think of her. She dropped speaking Malay, and when with English all the way. AND it was ENGLISH. I mean the accent. Yes, One Direction kinda English. The first few days, I was like "Eh! Minah ni.. perasan!". That was my first thought of her, then I've noticed that I'm actually jealous of her because of the fact that she got balls to do what she love and not care about others. I loved the English accent since I could barely sing a Barney song, but I never had the guts to have an accent cause I know Malaysian especially they don't accept these kind of fake behaviors. But here's a thought, if you don't practice it or should I say FAKE IT, you won't be better at it. It all starts as a fake acting. And you can wear fake lashes, fake eye contact lenses, fake hair buns, so tell me why can't I have a fake accent which is actually better in pronunciation than the original accent? 

Although I have this kinda theory in my mind, but I still don't have the big balls to run it. 
The girl I was talking about is AllyLillith or Nur Amalina. She got guts to be a Gutierrez. Kudos, to her.She's pretty as well for those whose asking, so check her out. You'll be in love. 

Yes, she wont layan you but be inspired. So if you have a thing that you want to pursue, just go with it. Don't care about the others. They wont be the one giving you dollar bills. 

PS: Ally, sorry for writing about you. I hope you don't mind. 

n.r.k.m.leya